I'm in the Post Office parking lot and my spirit says go to John 3...Water baptism has been heavy on my heart but I apologize not just any old random person will be immersing my being into water and symbolically be the physical representation of the doctor at my spiritual birth.
So...my spirit says go to this specific church. So instead of the plan I had for the day I did as the Spirit told me to do. I get there and ask to speak to their prominently known pastor. [Because I'm learning to speak at the appropriate times, I was writing everything on a tablet] They eventually led me to the lady...It's spiritually bananas crazy because I was given her name yesterday on one of my excursion rampaids (spelling?-who gives a fuck?). GOD IS BANANAS! Anyways, so I was asking the lady about talking to her pastor and we got into "talking" about baptism. Basically: she just didn't understand my spiritual perspective...and she asked to pray for me (I "said" no) and it's crazy because right before she laid her hand on my head I heard tongues and I was lead to place my hands over my ears. Then she went at it with the religious stuff. I can dig it but after she prayed she told me I was selfish and I was confused. After praying she got so impatient with me writing and she had this mean vibe about her. Im learning that it's not was goes into your body that defiles you but what comes out of your body that defiles you. It was crazy because the Word of God started flowing with the pen and paper then it went verbal.and she went to get security. I kept it as humble as I could but then when she started really contradicting herself I remembered the scripture "Zeal for my father's house will consume me" (i'm bad at quoting exactly where it's at but it's all sealed in my heart). She didn't even try to get the pastor and then when we "talked" about baptism she wanted to assign me a date! Tomorrow isn't guaranteed! What if I died on my way to the car? This salvation thing is so serious to me and every moment is precious as I continue to get my shit together. I may not have it all together, but I try my best to be respectful to every soul I encounter. I felt as if my soul was trampled and spit on and ripped apart by the hateful energies in the atmosphere.
But then this kind lady came and took me into her office and we "talked".
It's crazy because I could really feel the fruits of the spirit in her and she tried getting the pastor for me but he was unavailable. But I really felt a sense of completion after spending time with her and hearing some things in the atmosphere. and now it just makes me think of the times when I didn't bear the fruits of the spirit yet I claimed to know the Lord God Jehovah Elohim through Christ. But praise God that it's a process and we have to undergo a series of discoveries through personal events in order to bring out the true manifestation of the God Spirit through our flesh.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Security....please come get her
How bananas is this....the first time in a long time that I want to go to church and I get the police called on me!
“For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him,”- Philippians 1:29
A "NO PETS" sign is needed at every temple of worship.
Ok Ok so I brought a dog this time. But he is fully trained. I went to an isolated area and as Im worshipping I get painful nudges on my left arm....EXCUSE ME MISS....this is a place for saving souls! The fact that I have a soul wasnt even taken into account. I was mistreated. No my soul was mistreated. I was in spiritual torment at the time and they didn't take the time to even care for my soul. All they cared about was their man-made rules about animals and electronic devices. Yeshua says, "These people's worship of me is useless....they teach man made rules as if they were doctrines." No one asked me what was wrong or anything...it was all about the "dog-disturbance. What disturbance. No barking, No yelling, no noise, just tears crying out to my Lord - I wasn't in the main sanctuary. Caring for my soul....ok, right.BULLSHIT...it eventually turned into this big unnecessary ordeal and as soon as you know it two police officers are standing over my right shoulder....
But praise God, the Great Energy has been teaching me when to speak and when to not speak so I kept my silence during this whole ordeal [at the appropriate times] and quietly left.
What happen to the caring of my soul in this situation?
“For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him,”- Philippians 1:29
A "NO PETS" sign is needed at every temple of worship.
Ok Ok so I brought a dog this time. But he is fully trained. I went to an isolated area and as Im worshipping I get painful nudges on my left arm....EXCUSE ME MISS....this is a place for saving souls! The fact that I have a soul wasnt even taken into account. I was mistreated. No my soul was mistreated. I was in spiritual torment at the time and they didn't take the time to even care for my soul. All they cared about was their man-made rules about animals and electronic devices. Yeshua says, "These people's worship of me is useless....they teach man made rules as if they were doctrines." No one asked me what was wrong or anything...it was all about the "dog-disturbance. What disturbance. No barking, No yelling, no noise, just tears crying out to my Lord - I wasn't in the main sanctuary. Caring for my soul....ok, right.BULLSHIT...it eventually turned into this big unnecessary ordeal and as soon as you know it two police officers are standing over my right shoulder....
But praise God, the Great Energy has been teaching me when to speak and when to not speak so I kept my silence during this whole ordeal [at the appropriate times] and quietly left.
What happen to the caring of my soul in this situation?
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Ish
I am in love with the beautiful creature Jehovah God has matched me up with.
I screw up all the time and we had a terrible beginning. But what God has joined together let NO MAN put asunder!
Why does humanity divorce....it wasn't this way form the beginning and now that my eyes are open I refuse to conform regardless of the hurt or pain. Everything has its purpose. i just on the spiritual journey.
Jehovah God has used this being to make a virtuous woman out of me and I am forever grateful despite the seemingly endless hardtimes andexcruciating separation.
I love you ish and if you read this enever forget that.
As I become more consistent in my walk with the Lord and He reveals the true essence of myflesh and exposes my faults I rest in the comfort of eternal arms that no matter how terrible past mistakes have been...Nothing is too messed up or impossible for my God to solve. I mean really....HE CHANGED ME AND THAT'S A MIRACLE IN ITSELF!
:)
I screw up all the time and we had a terrible beginning. But what God has joined together let NO MAN put asunder!
Why does humanity divorce....it wasn't this way form the beginning and now that my eyes are open I refuse to conform regardless of the hurt or pain. Everything has its purpose. i just on the spiritual journey.
Jehovah God has used this being to make a virtuous woman out of me and I am forever grateful despite the seemingly endless hardtimes andexcruciating separation.
I love you ish and if you read this enever forget that.
As I become more consistent in my walk with the Lord and He reveals the true essence of myflesh and exposes my faults I rest in the comfort of eternal arms that no matter how terrible past mistakes have been...Nothing is too messed up or impossible for my God to solve. I mean really....HE CHANGED ME AND THAT'S A MIRACLE IN ITSELF!
:)
African skies and Yeshua's tears
My heart yearns for immediate eternal fulfillment as the African skies waver above my head, or should I say above the man made structures....
The plagues in my life have left a beautiful scar and blood of a magnificent Savior has sealed and eternally healed the wounds.
Thank You Heavenly Father for washing me and cleansing my spirit.
I have messed up so much in my life but praise God that I know that Jehovah is watching me and has forgiven all fleshly bullshit.
As I continue being transformed, my soul is revived and my being is constantly humbled.
Tears, salty drops of sorrow drip from my tear ducts as i long for the coming of my Lord.
I hide my face from the beautiful human faces surrounding me in this library...I do not want my tears to be seen, but the beauty of our Lord is indescribable and inexplicable...
$500 for GA Natural Gas, $400 to Sprint, $499 for rent, and I haven't a cent. But my Father own the world and created all that is therein. Blessings continue to manifest and forever thankful am I.
I'm forever changed and as I continue on the weary soul journey, my spirit is consistently awakened to the falsehood of this world, yet I am forever comforted my the eternal consolation of an open salvation.
You're beautiful holy One. Never let me go. Thank Yah for who Yah are. Thank Yah for saving my soul.
The plagues in my life have left a beautiful scar and blood of a magnificent Savior has sealed and eternally healed the wounds.
Thank You Heavenly Father for washing me and cleansing my spirit.
I have messed up so much in my life but praise God that I know that Jehovah is watching me and has forgiven all fleshly bullshit.
As I continue being transformed, my soul is revived and my being is constantly humbled.
Tears, salty drops of sorrow drip from my tear ducts as i long for the coming of my Lord.
I hide my face from the beautiful human faces surrounding me in this library...I do not want my tears to be seen, but the beauty of our Lord is indescribable and inexplicable...
$500 for GA Natural Gas, $400 to Sprint, $499 for rent, and I haven't a cent. But my Father own the world and created all that is therein. Blessings continue to manifest and forever thankful am I.
I'm forever changed and as I continue on the weary soul journey, my spirit is consistently awakened to the falsehood of this world, yet I am forever comforted my the eternal consolation of an open salvation.
You're beautiful holy One. Never let me go. Thank Yah for who Yah are. Thank Yah for saving my soul.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Locura
“LOCURA!” says the man to the young soul.
After expressing her deepest sentiment toward the realities of this world in relation to Christ, in spiritual terms, her heart is stabbed cold by this six letter word.
But “crazy” has been labeled on this soul since birth.
You think she has become immune to the misunderstanding of her God-given personality, but all that contributes to such a label just sinks deeper into the cold inner of her core solidly labeled “anguish”.
The remedy: true agape love, however, from the man her soul adores and essence breathes to the closest of home girls and family, all believe that she has lost her mind and sanity.
Though it seems somewhat true, her loves chaos is just a pattern not yet understood.
God is manifesting the genuine love energy of the Son inside of her.
Not too long ago she was locked down in a psych ward for the second time for pouring her soul for all to feel. Feeling betrayal instead of the intended proposition of help from those labeled as her family.
All she wanted was to be heard through her silence.
All she has ever wanted was the true expression of Christ minus the so-called “church building experience“.
She has suffered from the plagues of sexual promiscuity, regenerating from the wounds of drug abuse, survived the tainted curse of homosexuality, healing from seemingly endless physical, emotional, and sexual abuse, and is currently being drawn from the abyss of spiritual confusion brought upon by a spiritual rape incontestably indescribable.
Whether self initiated or forcefully imposed, all she has ever received was pain and excruciating agony. Nevertheless, this life’s torment is uprooting the embossed pestilence of selfishness and spiritual infection of pride and greed.
Since the tender age of 12, if she had to walk, catch a bus, or wake up ol’’ moms, she did what she had to do to chase a church service on Sunday morning; however, the answer has always been staring her in the face away from the building labeled “church“: The Love of Christ.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for Adonai, your God, will be with you wherever you go - Joshua 1:9
After expressing her deepest sentiment toward the realities of this world in relation to Christ, in spiritual terms, her heart is stabbed cold by this six letter word.
But “crazy” has been labeled on this soul since birth.
You think she has become immune to the misunderstanding of her God-given personality, but all that contributes to such a label just sinks deeper into the cold inner of her core solidly labeled “anguish”.
The remedy: true agape love, however, from the man her soul adores and essence breathes to the closest of home girls and family, all believe that she has lost her mind and sanity.
Though it seems somewhat true, her loves chaos is just a pattern not yet understood.
God is manifesting the genuine love energy of the Son inside of her.
Not too long ago she was locked down in a psych ward for the second time for pouring her soul for all to feel. Feeling betrayal instead of the intended proposition of help from those labeled as her family.
All she wanted was to be heard through her silence.
All she has ever wanted was the true expression of Christ minus the so-called “church building experience“.
She has suffered from the plagues of sexual promiscuity, regenerating from the wounds of drug abuse, survived the tainted curse of homosexuality, healing from seemingly endless physical, emotional, and sexual abuse, and is currently being drawn from the abyss of spiritual confusion brought upon by a spiritual rape incontestably indescribable.
Whether self initiated or forcefully imposed, all she has ever received was pain and excruciating agony. Nevertheless, this life’s torment is uprooting the embossed pestilence of selfishness and spiritual infection of pride and greed.
Since the tender age of 12, if she had to walk, catch a bus, or wake up ol’’ moms, she did what she had to do to chase a church service on Sunday morning; however, the answer has always been staring her in the face away from the building labeled “church“: The Love of Christ.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for Adonai, your God, will be with you wherever you go - Joshua 1:9
Monday, March 10, 2008
FUCK! :(
I just found out my homie DAWON MILES passed. Shot - killed - dead.
D.C. homie for life
Death waits for no one!
It's so crazy because when I first got on fire for the Lord, Dawon and I randomly met up.
When I was moving, he was going to the same area, so we had been talking about God and just spiritually opening up to eachother.
THEN I FELL AGAIN IN TO THE WOES OF THE WORLD....and as soon as I wake up to the spiritual beautiful essence of YHWH....I find out my homie is dead! Lord willing, he is in the eternal place of peace.
You never know when the last time you see someone is going to be. Cherish and make most of every moment through the true essence of YHWH love.
Give your heart to God. Let Christ Arise in you! Stop with all this religious bullshit and live in the true essence of love! YHWH, Jehovah Elohim! Nothing can be done in true spiritual benefit unless YHWH is the head through Christ!
Dawon had been trying to get at me for a hot minute, but Im known for procrastinating and doing shit when I feel like it. THIS LIFE ISN't ABOUT ME or YOU! It's all about God and ITS TIME TO GET REAL WITH THIS SHIT!
Just believe. Spiritual tranformation.
D.C. homie for life
Death waits for no one!
It's so crazy because when I first got on fire for the Lord, Dawon and I randomly met up.
When I was moving, he was going to the same area, so we had been talking about God and just spiritually opening up to eachother.
THEN I FELL AGAIN IN TO THE WOES OF THE WORLD....and as soon as I wake up to the spiritual beautiful essence of YHWH....I find out my homie is dead! Lord willing, he is in the eternal place of peace.
You never know when the last time you see someone is going to be. Cherish and make most of every moment through the true essence of YHWH love.
Give your heart to God. Let Christ Arise in you! Stop with all this religious bullshit and live in the true essence of love! YHWH, Jehovah Elohim! Nothing can be done in true spiritual benefit unless YHWH is the head through Christ!
Dawon had been trying to get at me for a hot minute, but Im known for procrastinating and doing shit when I feel like it. THIS LIFE ISN't ABOUT ME or YOU! It's all about God and ITS TIME TO GET REAL WITH THIS SHIT!
Just believe. Spiritual tranformation.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Fuck that which exalts itself against my Heavenly Father!
Day 1 - Check, almost completed. Praise the GE for a successful start to spiritual and physical cleansing. (Fuck the world, it's manmade schedules and standards) It's restart time. We have been redeemed. New perspective, new outlook, new food, new understanding, new rule...
Truth = living in the spirit of YHWH love through Yeshua the Risen Messiah
Be not conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind through Yeshua the Risen Messiah.
Truth = living in the spirit of YHWH love through Yeshua the Risen Messiah
Be not conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind through Yeshua the Risen Messiah.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Blah Blue BLumm
So. Life. It's supposed to PLEASE the great energy (GE).
All great and powerful honors to the GE.
Glorify the name of the Most High in the name of Yeshua the risen. messiah
Yes, yes i know...so many previous prophets and profound beings; amazing life teachings and disoveries. Yeshua the risen is the sum of of that. The Risen messiah is the conclusion of the mass number of profound manifestations of God that came before His time here on earth. He is and always has been. ETERNAL.Divine, unconditional, unfathomable love freed from this "skin bag".Do we worship Him, no, worship Adonai your God and serve Him only, but He deserves an eternal amount of respect. He died because He lived in the essence of true love. The sacrifice is yourself. The lie of your life is the Cross. Christ is all and is in all.
Pick up your cross and the true love essence of an eternal sacrifice wipe away the burden of its falsehood.
All great and powerful honors to the GE.
Glorify the name of the Most High in the name of Yeshua the risen. messiah
Yes, yes i know...so many previous prophets and profound beings; amazing life teachings and disoveries. Yeshua the risen is the sum of of that. The Risen messiah is the conclusion of the mass number of profound manifestations of God that came before His time here on earth. He is and always has been. ETERNAL.Divine, unconditional, unfathomable love freed from this "skin bag".Do we worship Him, no, worship Adonai your God and serve Him only, but He deserves an eternal amount of respect. He died because He lived in the essence of true love. The sacrifice is yourself. The lie of your life is the Cross. Christ is all and is in all.
Pick up your cross and the true love essence of an eternal sacrifice wipe away the burden of its falsehood.
TRUTH
You're free if you want to be.
There is no defeat in spiritual warfare.
We might delay in coming to that perspective or that realization or be decrepit to follow through on such information, but we will always have the victory.
YAH will bring each individual at the time that YAH has set.
YAH knows what each individual spirit of YAH needs to come to the ultimate spiritual moment of reality.
LIFE's victory requires a wholehearted devotion to YAH. Don't give up.
YAH has a plan, we just have to learn to trust YAH even though we don't always understand.
- Anonymous
There is no defeat in spiritual warfare.
We might delay in coming to that perspective or that realization or be decrepit to follow through on such information, but we will always have the victory.
YAH will bring each individual at the time that YAH has set.
YAH knows what each individual spirit of YAH needs to come to the ultimate spiritual moment of reality.
LIFE's victory requires a wholehearted devotion to YAH. Don't give up.
YAH has a plan, we just have to learn to trust YAH even though we don't always understand.
- Anonymous
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